Anonymous asked: Your anon is here again. Seems like things are pretty rough right now, yes? Well you know what? Keep smiling, beautiful because in the end I am sure you will be better, seem better and things will and do get better. Your anon is always here for you, you know. Lots of love your anon-a-day

I just got an email saying I got this in my ask so I thought I best go read it see if it makes me feel better. 

Yerp things are as you say “rough” right now, well, things are always rough in my life. I dont know what I do sometimes but when ever I think things are looking up and things are gonna be great, I just get a big punch in the face. 

IDK. I just feel like utter shit today and my mum had a fight with my older sister. I got a phone call from my little sister while I was at Uni, she was crying telling me my mum was sobbing because my sister actually threw a plate at her and was about to hit my mum. She was begging me to come home quick so that I could stop her.

It just brought back memories to when my dad was here and her would….yeno… and I would be the one calling people asking…begging… them to come home because he wouldn’t do them things when people were here. He put on a cracking good show for people. 

And my sister had the cheek to say to my mum today “I dont blame my dad for leaving you, you’re and fucking bitch!” She couldnt be more wrong. Wrong in that my mum left me dad THANK FUCK!!! and wrong as in you dont say that after the 18 years you had to watch the shit he put her threw. you just dont. PURE DISRESPECT TO THE WOMEN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU AND BROUGHT YOU UP! 

I hate her and never wanna speak to her again. that was bellow the belt completely. 

She walked out. My mum hasn’t heard from her all day so she is biting her nails and probably wont be sleeping tonight worried sick about her, but she 20, shes not a kid, she needs to learn.

Sorry for the rant. Its just everything is bring memory’s back to my dad and I just can not take flash backs and the pain any more. I just give up. I give up with everything. I give up with this shitty ass life. I fucking hate complaining about it because I know people are still going threw shit like this and people have had a worse life.

But thank you anon because people like you give me a little bit of faith in humanity. Thank you ♥♥♥